It feels strange to be around people who are extremely moody. And when I say extremely, I mean extremely.
Friend1 is acting up. Last Tuesday, Friend1 posted on Facebook that it was “THE BEST DAY EVER”. Yes, the statement was all in upper case. And it didn’t seem sarcastic at all. Friend1 was in a good mood the entire day. Although when asked why, Friend1 wouldn’t say a word.
I don’t get it. Why share what your mood is, and share it in that cryptic way that makes people want to ask, and then when you do finally ask, they don’t tell you the answer? You’re supposed to just be happy for them without knowing why. I don’t know about you, but before I sympathize with someone, or support someone, I’d like to know the reason that person is feeling that way.
Anyway, all day yesterday Friend1 was suddenly in a foul mood. And again, there’s no explanation why. But Friend1 would keep saying, that it was a bad day, a cranky day, and even told me, “Either you shut up or you join the catastrophe.”
Why? Why get people all curious and intrigued, when you’re just going to tell them that it’s none of their business? Why say anything at all when you “don’t want to talk about it”?
Quick solution for me: STOP CARING. Or maybe, STOP F*CK*NG CARING.
Why does everyone say that caring about something or someone is a good thing? And people judge you when you’re apathetic. But when you’re the one who cares, you’re the one who gets hurt and disappointed and at times, embarrassed.
Why tell me all about your being happy and then be so vague about it? Or why tell me all about your misery only to tell me that you’re not going to say anything more except that you’re sad? And if I ask any further, you’re going to get mad at me. What’s the point? Why tell me, that you can’t tell me anything? And I’m supposed to, what? Support you? How do I do that when I don’t even understand you!?
Right. This post is becoming too personal. Whatever. I’m just suddenly sad that Friend1 is… supposedly one of my really really closest friends, but apparently isn’t because Friend1 won’t tell me anything about what’s happening.
Why do friends break my heart? It’s not enough that the guys I like all break my heart, but my friends want a piece of that action, too?