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Ang Wallpaper ng Walang Boyfriend

I suppose I should be updating this blog with a lot more than this, on account of my sister being here the past week and that I’m not actually an artist and all that, but when I think about it, who really cares about what happened with my sister’s visit? And who in the world wide web who isn’t my family, would be interested in my cousin’s new baby and all that stuff? My friends who are interested, I would rather tell the stories in person, or over YM. And so to avoid writing a long blog post about recent events, which not a lot of people will want to read anyway, I’m posting this instead. But it comes with an anecdote, too, so I guess that still makes me talkative as ever.

So I noticed that on Z’s laptop (It’s an ASUS Eee PC.), the wallpaper of the desktop was a picture of her and her boyfriend. I said, “Yuck, is that seriously your wallpaper?”

Oh wait, I guess I should tell you first that Z and her boyfriend aren’t really the mushy lovey-dovey couple. So I found it weird that her computer’s wallpaper was a picture of the two of them together.

“So what?” she countered, and we just laughed.

Later on, when I turned my computer on, I remembered that ever since I got it, I never really changed the wallpaper into something other than one of the default wallpapers that the operating system (Windows XP) had, except that time that I was really obsessed about The Big Bang Theory and so I changed the wallpaper into something related to that, but I changed it back to another default image just a few weeks later.

My current wallpaper then was this:

wall

“Ako tignan mo wallpaper ko,” I said to Z and showed her my computer monitor. “Default. Ang wallpaper ng walang boyfriend.”

We both laughed. And that is what inspired me to make this:

Windows Default Wallpapers: Ang Wallpaper ng Walang Boyfriend

Windows Default Wallpapers: Ang Wallpaper ng Walang Boyfriend

Disclaimer: Images belong to Microsoft and I’m not making any money from this.

Download n’yo na lang kung gusto n’yo at applicable din sa inyo! Hehehe! ;) (Click on the image to download.)

BTW, I’m not a real artist, so isa lang ang size nito, and kayo na lang mag-resize and stuff. Sorry naman, hindi talaga ako marunong gumawa nito, trip ko lang ngayon. And yeah, this is my desktop’s wallpaper now. Hehe.

One Good Thing

I wanted to write another entry that doesn’t tackle this issue anymore, but alas, this is still what occupies my mind nowadays, and not even my socks getting wet from the rain because I found out too late that my shoe had a hole on it, was enough to distract me from crawling the internet still, to find more things being said and written about this National Artist controversy.

So I know that to everyone else outside of the art community, or perhaps even within the art community, this issue has faded and has been overshadowed by more pressing matters, whether in their personal lives or in our nation as after all, this is only a matter of an award being given to the wrong people (or maybe they’re the right people, but the awards were given at the wrong time), and not the death of soldiers at war. But as I have nothing but sadness for those people who have died, and anger at the world for letting things like that happen, I will talk more about this issue, which I feel is closer to my heart.

I am definitely not happy about how things are turning out, especially with the fact that there are less and less people who care about this. And I am still hoping against hope that this will all be corrected somehow, because it will be very sad for our history (and future too, I guess), if the National Artist Award really does become nothing more than something a president gives to his/her friends. But there is something positive that has come out of this whole thing.

The previous topics that have had a lot of bloggers typing away on their keyboards, posting all their different opinions to the world, haven’t really been all that engaging. I’m talking about the Malu Fernandez fiasco and that thing about Customs putting taxes on books. There were many things wrong with those issues, true, but what made them worse were the over-emotional mean-spirited comments that people kept saying about them. I know that it’s hard to stay objective when someone has just said that she’d rather slit her wrists than ride the same airplane with the likes of you, but calling that person a pig and saying that she doesn’t have a right to live because she’s fat and ugly, really doesn’t make you any better. I had tried to avoid the internet then because I didn’t want to see so many haters finding someone to lash their anger out on. And for a moment, I thought that I might experience the same thing this time, with this issue. But as it turns out, most of the things I have read that talk about this, are some of the most interesting things I’ve ever read.

The links I posted in the previous entry are just a small faction of a collection of the most insightful commentary I’ve read about art in our country. I found yet another one through clicking on links of different sites, and I liked it so much that I wrote this entry, just so I could share it:

Weighing in on the National Artists Controversy
by R.E. De Leon

There really are many others and I feel bad that I wasn’t able to save all of the links to them, or even remember who their writers are. But here, let me give the link to this one again:

Komikero Comics Journal

I have been reading that more than I’ve been reading my friends’ blogs these past few weeks, because it has the updates on the issue, and also interesting discussions in the comments section.

I do hope you visit it, and maybe share your two cents, too. As long as it’s not a troll-like comment, I’m sure it will be appreciated.

My wish now is for the rest of the artits and writers out there to speak up the way the others have done. I’m a little jaded so I don’t know if any amount of noise we make will make its way to people who don’t want to listen to us, but I do think that if there are others out there like me, who are at least inspired by what you have to say, and are even learning from it (honestly, I haven’t put down the dictionary since August 1, because there are just so many complicated words being used to describe and explain all of this), then I think any amount of effort you put into it will be worth it. :)

They Say It Better

Sorry naman, I know it’s so uncharacteristic of me to care about this (or anything, really) pero promise, I’m not kidding, mas-stinalk ko pa ang website ng Inquirer kaysa sa Facebook page ng crush ko*, kakahintay sa kung may sasabihin ba si Conrado de Quiros about this issue. At ayan, meron na nga. :)

*This is actually hypothetical. Actually, wala akong Facebook. Pero kung meron man, at contact ko nga ‘dun ‘yung crush ko, malamang madalas ko nga titignan ‘yung page niya, except for these past few days, kasi nga…

Anyway, tama nang satsat. I’ll get to the topic. Seriously, I’d been waiting for articles like these because I know, that they’ll be able to articulate it far better than I can.

And honestly, I think it’s good that De Quiros set this aside, and published it only after the Cory-related columns that he wrote, because it’s now a more level-headed and objective take on the issue. Medyo nag-settle na kasi ‘yung mga pangyayari (sa public, at least. I know sa mga artist hindi pa rin, at sana hindi magsesettle until finally ma-correct ‘yung error).

So here I am providing the link to his latest column (well, as of this writing, August 12), which I think everyone, and I mean everyone — artists and non-artists + the people involved (e.g. Caparas, not that he’s going to believe any of it because his mind is closed, but you never know), at lalung-lalo na ‘yung mga walang pakialam sa art community ng Pilipinas. Para maintindihan n’yo kung bakit controversy ito.

DELUSIONS by Conrado de Quiros

Oh, and I just want to say, that if you find yourself being compared to Imelda Marcos, who we all know is one of the main reasons for all kinds of bad stuff that have happened to our country, and you find yourself being described as worse than she is, then you must be truly truly evil.**

**If you didn’t understand this comment, I’m telling you, read the column!

And here’s more. They’re older than the column of De Quiros and I guess I should’ve posted them earlier, but anyways…

From Butch Dalisay:

The Corruption of Culture
How Delicadeza Works–or Not

And one from Isagani Cruz, which I also really liked reading, because he made an excellent point, regarding the “pang-masa kasi si Caparas” issue, and brought up FPJ.

The 2009 Philippine National Artists Awards

‘Yon. ‘Yun na. Maybe I’ll update more on this later on, pero baka iwasan ko rin muna ‘yung topic. Pinagtatawanan na’ko ng mga kakilala ko, bakit daw ako may pakialam sa mga bagay na ito. Pero mali pala ‘no, dapat imbis na umiwas ako, tanungin ko na lang sila, “Bakit kayo walang pakialam?”

(Haha! Nagpaka-righteous pa’ko! Sorry na.)

Nagtataka Lang

Wala naman akong cinontribute sa Arts and Culture ng Pilipinas kaya hindi ako “qualified” na magcri-criticize. Hindi ko sasabihing panget ang mga gawa nila o na hindi nila deserve. Pero siguro naman dahil Pilipino ako, may karapatan akong magtanong?

 1. Pang-elitista lang daw ang National Artist Award kaya ayaw daw ng mga totoong artists na mabigyan si Carlo Caparas nito.

‘Eh bakit National Artist si FPJ? Elitista ba siya? Mga mayayaman lang ba ang nanonood ng mga pelikula niya?

2. Mga “sectoral artists” lang daw ang mga current na National Artist. Hindi daw alam ng mga tao ang pangalan nila. Elitista daw sila kaya dapat sila ang magbalik ng mga parangal nila dahil sila ang mga hindi may deserve nito.

‘Eh bakit dinedefend din nila Caparas si Cecile Alvarez? Maka-masa rin ba si Cecile Alvarez para i-defend nila? Galing din ba siya hirap? Alam rin ba ng bawat Pilipino ang pangalan niya? Naka-cross over din ba siya sa TV at pelikula? So bakit dumedepensa din sila kay Alvarez, na base ‘dun sa mga sinabi nila ‘eh “sectoral artist” din at “elitista” din naman?

3. Inaaway daw ng mga elitista si Carlo J. Caparas dahil mahirap siya.

‘Yun ba ang dahilan kung bakit siya inaaway? ‘Eh kung ‘yun ang dahilan, bakit pati si Cecile Alvarez inaaway? Mahirap din ba siya? Pang-masa din ba siya? ‘Eh English din siya magsalita ‘ah. Akala ko ba, ayon kay Caparas, ‘yung mga English ang salita at may pinag-aralan, elitista? ‘Yun ‘yung sinabi niya kay Butch Dalisay, diba? ‘Eh bakit si Vilma Labrador, nag-Eenglish din siya ‘ah! Bakit pati siya “pinuputakan” ng mga so-called elitists, kung kapwa elitist din sila? Si GMA inaaway din ‘ah! O, wag n’yong sabihing mahirap at maka-masa siya kaya siya inaaway ng mga “elitista”. Ang mga nakakakain ng dinner sa New York na worth P1million ay hindi mahirap at lalung-lalo nang hindi maka-masa. At saka marunong din siyang mag-English, diba? Nag-aral pa nga siya sa U.S., diba?

4. Naiinggit lang daw ‘yung mga kritiko kina Alvarez at Caparas dahil gusto nila ang National Artist Award para sa mga sarili nila.

‘Eh bakit pati ang mga taong katulad nila BenCab, Bienvenido Lumbera at F. Sionil Jose nagpro-protesta ‘eh dati na silang National Artist? Pwede bang ideklarang National Artist ng dalawang beses ang isang tao? Hindi naman, diba? Nauna pa silang maging National Artist kina Alvarez at Caparas, so ano pang ika-iinggit nila, kung ‘yun nga ang dahilan ng protesta?

5. At higit sa lahat, ano ang galit ng Malacañang kay Ramon Santos?

Anong ginawa niya na hindi ginawa nila Alcuaz, Conde at Francisco? Bakit sila naiwan sa listahan, pero si Santos natanggal?

Hindi ko sinasabing dapat natanggal silang lahat. Pero hindi ba kayo nagtataka? Kung magtatanggal sila sa listahan, bakit si Santos lang? Ang theory ko, kasi “S” ‘yung apelyido niya. Siguro sa listahan, parating nasa huli ‘yung pangalan niya kasi alphabetical. So nung nagsingit ng mga pangalan sa listahan, sa ilalim napunta ’yung pangalan niya. Baka tuloy naputol nung pinrint nila. O kaya naman, baka nahirapan silang magbasa ng listahan na ganoon kahaba, kaya ‘di sila umabot sa dulo nung inannounce nila. Malay n’yo totoo. ‘Eh kung ganun lang pala ka-arbitrary ang pag-proclaim ng National Artist, na pwedeng ibale-wala lahat ng effort ng ibang tao, bakit hindi posible ‘yung sinasabi ko?

Well, if it isn’t…

Fate.

I’ve been friends with Fate for a long time now. Of course, some people call it Coincidence. I used to call it that, too. But after so many run-ins with it, I can no longer call events mere coincidences. They’re the work of Fate, I tell you. And as time passes, I’ll probably be mentioning more about it. But for now, let me tell you about my most recent experience related to Fate.

And again, I guess I’m focusing on this because I’m just incapable of tackling serious issues, but anyway…

This all has to do with the National Artist Award. If you still don’t know what the issue on this is, click here.

Right. When I first learned of what happened, it spelled for me, controversy, right away. And I e-mailed my officemates and friends about how it was so unjust to have someone who’s supposedly disqualified from receiving the award actually get the award, and someone who’s clearly not a visual artist get an award for the category of visual art. Sadly, my officemates, being not all that interested in the local art industry, couldn’t really care less, and were more entertained with how I reacted to the issue (almost like a madman, really), rather than the actual issue. Some of them even laughed at me. (And people wonder why I’m anti-social?) Serves me right for thinking people who aren’t privy to the art world, would understand. But that’s the problem, isn’t it?

Maybe GMA didn’t think that enough people cared about things happening the art world, so maybe she thought that giving the wrong people prestigious awards wouldn’t be all that noticeable. Judging from the reactions of my officemates and some of my friends who didn’t even bother listening to me when I told them about it, I guess I’d say that was true. Since only the people who are active in the art industry are the ones who care, the rest just think of them as sour-graping, no matter how valid their protests are. It really makes me sad.

I surprised even myself, when I found myself researching more, reading news articles, blogs, and even trying to look for radio stations that would report on this. I usually avoid the news like the plague so that I wouldn’t have to think about all these problems that our world has, but I don’t know, this thing really got me all riled up. Maybe because the National Artist Award is something that I really used to look up to, even more than the Palanca Award, which is the one specifically for writing (and that’s really the only artsy thing I can do, and I’m not even that good at it). Maybe I’m crazy, but having a lot of friends who are artists, I’ve actually dreamed of them becoming National Artists themselves, because that way, I’d have National Artists friends (Oo, ganoon ako kababaw, hehe). But now, I don’t think I want my friends to receive awards that are given away like that.

Anyway, like I said, I’m really not a very good writer. And someone who is way better at it than me (and than most of us), has written pretty much the same sentiments that I have, so I’ll just redirect you to that blog. I do hope you read it because really, although it may sound somewhat violent, it’s actually unbiased, sticking to the real issue at hand, and comprehensive, too.

Komikero Comics Journal – Gerry Alanguilan

I’m redirecting you to the entire blog instead of just one entry as most of the recent entries are all about this issue.

Ah, but what is the connection of this entry to Fate, you ask? Well, here’s the story:

Earlier today as I was talking with some new friends, one of them, decided to show me the Facebook page of the guy whom she says is “the love of her life”. He happened to be Illac Diaz.

Now, I should note that before this day, I have never heard of Illac Diaz, and really had no idea of who he was. My friend showed me his Facebook pictures, and told me some fangirl stories. Anyway, after some more gossipping about Illac Diaz, we eventually had to say goodbye to each other and go home.

When I got home, I opened my computer to right away check if there were any updates on Gerry Alanguilan’s blog about the National Artist issue. And sure enough there was. It’s this one: Carlo J. Caparas is NOT a Visual Artist

Wait, let me repeat that link, and in all caps:

CARLO J. CAPARAS IS NOT A VISUAL ARTIST

But guess what else was on that entry? It contains a link to a Multiply album of photos from earlier’s protest against the awards. And here’s where Fate steps in: the Multiply album is owned by none other than — Illac Diaz! The very same person my friend told me about just earlier today. And take note: Before today, I had no idea that such a person existed. And now, I find out, not only of his existence, but that he’s on our side with regrd to this National Artist controversy, too!

I know, this seems like a shallow and stupid topic, but it’s really just my way to disguise this entry as something that’s still light, whilst inserting the clues that really, naming Carlo J. Caparas as a National Artist for Visual Art is axiomatically crazy. (Hey look at that! I used a big word! ;) ) I just don’t want to try to be profound and have my arguments countered by someone who’s a lot smarter than I am (and then I will just end up speechless and totally pwned). All I can do is admit to my own limitations: I’m not that smart, but I still know right from wrong. And naming someone who’s NOT a visual artist as a National Artist for Visual Art, is just wrong.

And now, since I’m feeling petty (and shallow, don’t forget shallow), I’ll share something I said earlier that I guess can be considered petty:

Wala talagang konsensya si Carlo J. Caparas, at talagang makapal ang mukha niya kasi walang siyang balak na ibalik ang award na binigay sa kanya. Pero ang ibang paraan lang para maalis sa kanya ‘yung parangal na ‘yun, ‘eh kung bawiin ng pangulo ‘yung award. ‘Eh paano naman mangyayari ‘yun, kung ‘yung pangulo ‘eh lalong mas walang konsensya at lalong mas makapal ang mukha?

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