Friday on a Tuesday

Grabe, sa sobrang dalang kong mag-update dito, minsan nakakalimutan ko na mayroon nga pala akong nitong blog na ‘to. Sorry na. Sobrang busy lang talaga sa work. (Naks! Career-oriented na’ko ngayon?!) Ayan tuloy, hindi na’ko makapagkwento. Samantalang ang dami-daming nangyari. Nag-teambuilding kami sa Tagaytay! Nanood ako ng Here Comes the Bride! At basta marami pang ibang nangyari. Pero for now, eto na muna ang kwento ko dahil ‘yung iba (particularly ‘yung tungkol sa teambuilding) ‘eh kailangan ng mas-maraming oras.

Going Up, Part 2

Actually, wala namang koneksyon ito sa Part 1, wala lang akong maisip na ibang subtitle. Pero tungkol rin ito sa North. Sa North! Akalain mong umabot nanaman ako sa North kagabi. Parang pang-3rd time ko pa lang sa SM North ever. Hahah! ‘Eh kasi naman ‘no… Bakit naman ako mapapadpad ‘dun ‘eh meron namang ATC/Festival/Southmall, or Glorietta kung sakaling sawa na’ko sa ATC/Festival/Southmall? Besides, super love ko ang South. But alas, we all have to make compromises for the people in our lives (what?!! may ganun?).

Birthday kasi ng friend kong si N, so ininvite niya ko sa dinner with her officemates. ‘Eh saktong sa may Fairview ang opisina nila at lahat sila ‘eh within the QC vicinity nakatira, so parang ang kapal naman ng mukha ko kung sabihin kong sa Makati na lang ‘yung dinner, diba? Hindi naman ako ‘yung may birthday anyway. And, nakakahiya na rin tumanggi, kasi supposedly sa UP Ayala Technohub ‘yung dinner, kaya lang, dahil sa’kin ‘eh naisip nilang sa SM North na lang para madali akong makapunta. So nag-adjust na rin sila. I had to go. Pero actually, I didn’t mind all that much. Masaya kasi.

Kumain kami sa Tender Bob’s — cheesy fries, pasta, ribs, pork chops, buttered vegetables, and lots and lots of iced tea Syempre mas-masarap for me dahil libre. And then afterwards, we went to Gerry’s Grill and drank beer. On a Tuesday night. Ang labo. Pero nakakatuwa rin. Hindi masyadong maraming tao so mabilis-bilis ‘yung service and sakto lang ‘yung ingay. Nakita pa namin si Bentong. At nalaman kong, hindi pala mapait ang draft beer. I mean, not really. So, hindi naman talaga ako umiinom ng beer. Actually, first time kong uminom ng more than 1 sip kagabi. Ok lang naman pala. Naka-apat akong baso. Yata. Haha! ‘Di ko na rin maalala. -_- Basta marami-rami rin akong nainom. Nabilib sila sa’ken. Hahaha! So maybe, I just think that my tolerance for alcohol is low because I used to always just drink hard drinks, pero kapag beer, ok lang kahit marami?

Well, hindi naman talaga ako mahilig uminom. Ayoko lang maging KJ sa inuman. Although it occurs to me now that this really makes me, um, hindi dalagang Filipina. Hahaha! Last night, after my 3rd/4th glass, E said for me to stop drinking. I said I could probably drink another glass before I feel dizzy or anything, but he didn’t believe me. Still, when they took my glass and filled it up, I drank all of it. (Don’t worry, it’s a small glass, anyway.)

I think this is maybe one of E’s biggest frustrations about me. That I don’t follow him, or that he can’t “control” me? And I know we’re not supposed to control other people anyway, but I think there are people who get a certain sense of satisfaction when they know that someone else will do what they ask. Take, ordering food at a restaurant for example. There are some people who hate it when other people order for them. And there are some people who like it when other people order for them. I’m the former. I hate it when another person orders for me, but ironically, I absolutely love ordering for other people. I guess it all comes down on who wants to be followed more. And because I’m somewhat bossy, well, there are people who get frustrated at me. Am I still making sense?

Anyway, we left SM North at around 10:30PM and had to take the bus because the MRT was no longer operating at that time. The fare was P65 each. Ouch. I got home past midnight to a semi-angry dad and a sleepy albeit curious mom. So many things to consider when I’m going North. But at the same time, it’s kinda fun. As long as it’s not too often. I don’t think I can take traveling 40kms or more on a daily basis.

(I actually took some pictures. Perhaps I’ll put them up when I have more time.)

Oh, These Tears

I thought the last had fallen in 2008. But apparently, I have more tears to shed for you.

I get what you’re saying. I understand it, actually. But it’s not the words that are the problem. It’s what you’re not saying. I want to know, what lies beneath the lies.

Just Thoughts

Thought I’d write something before the month of May completely passes me by. Although it’s still the middle of the month, the end feels really close, and with it, the end of summertime I guess, so I’m writing something. I will warn you that it’s probably not going to make a lot of sense since it’s that time when the thoughts in my head are too many and I’m too tired to try and connect them all. Anyway, let’s start.

News

I’m currently reading the news (not all of it) because it’s sort of been exciting since the elections last Monday. We’ll have a new president soon and although a lot of people I know have a poor opinion of the leading candidate, I think that the future isn’t going to be as bad as it could be had some other candidate won, particularly the 2nd and 3rd leading candidates. Anyhow, my focus isn’t really on the elections now and more on the still current president, who’s just again done something so evil that I’m thinking that if she were in a TV series, she’d most definitely be the antagonist. Like in the first season of Prison Break (I didn’t watch any other season, btw.), remember what the vice-president did? She had her brother killed (and framed Lincoln Burrows for it) so she could get the sympathy of the people when she runs for president. And when that didn’t work, she poisoned the president, so she wouldn’t have to go through elections to be the president. With the way things are going in our government right now, I’d say the people are just as vile.

Anyway, another thing I like to comment about is The Philippine Star. I’ve been reading several publications, just to see their different takes on the same issues, and I’ve found that The Philippines Star is an elitist newspaper. It wastes a lot of paragraphs explaining things about the Philippines, that any Filipino who’s studied grade school in the Philippines would already know (like who BongBong Marcos is). And I mean, it’s well and good that their news can cater to foreigners, but I just don’t like reading anything that feels like they’re addressed to somebody else. It feels like reading somebody else’s mail. Newspapers shouldn’t be like that.

The Last Song

My brother’s girlfriend calls this, “the most thought-provoking film ever”. Dahil habang pinapanood mo, mapapaisip ka ng: BAKIT KO BA ‘TO NAISIPANG PANOORIN?!?!

In fairness to us though, we were really planning on seeing Here Comes the Bride, but tickets to that were sold out. So we didn’t have a choice but to watch the Miley Cyrus/Nicholas Sparks collaboration. I’m mentioning the two of them because they’re two people that I don’t like very much. I mean I like Hannah Montana but Miley Cyrus is just not a serious actress. And Nicholas Sparks, ugh. So, I think Message in a Bottle was pretty okay, and A Walk to Remember remains one of the better teen movies. Even The Notebook is fine, but mostly only because of the amazing chemistry of Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams. Anyway, can he please think of another plot?!? Is that the way to become a successful writer? To find a good story and just write it over and over, with only the names and ages and location of your characters changing?

You

Your status in Facebook today goes, “I wish I had someone to share this good scenery with.”

Ok, it’s not actually that. But if I’m reposting anything you write, I’m gonna have to correct your grammar. Anyway, somebody commented with something like, “Ayaw mo ng scenery sa (insert the name of the place where I live here)?”

Right. I know how it feels. To feel so lonely, because the person I like doesn’t like me back. Even though I know perfectly well that there are other people who like me just fine. It’s like when I get back from a trip and the captain of the airplane finally allows the use of cellphones. I always feel sad during this time because I’m reminded that there’s no one to text that I’m back. But actually, I could text all my friends that I’m back. And some of them would reply, too. But it doesn’t make me feel any better, because the only person I want to know that I’m back, and want to receive a reply from, is you.

So I can understand why, despite my existence, despite your knowledge that there is such a person who would want nothing more than to share a scenery with you, you’d feel like there’s no one. Because all that matters to you is that the person you want to share that scenery with (whoever she is), isn’t around.

It really sucks that I keep reading about how you feel so lonely and how you’re so hurt because nobody loves you. I mean, it makes me feel like vapor. And I know that the right thing to do is to just get over you because you don’t appreciate me. But it’s really easier said than done. How do I get over you when, despite all the bad things you do, you’re still the only one who can make me the happiest I’ve ever been?

Does this make me an actual masochist? Because the only person who makes me happiest, is also the person who hurts me the most?

Saddest

Why does unrequited love have to exist? I mean, meron nang war, famine, poverty, natural disasters, car accidents, genocide, at kung anu-ano pang evilness sa mundo. So pwede bang, wala nang unrequited love?

May Update

How did May pass me by? I felt the last day of April, but I didn’t realize it’s almost halfway through May now. Soon it’ll be June and before you know it, it’s 2011. Why does time move so fast? People want to know what can go faster than the speed of light? That would be time. But anyway, I don’t want to get all scientific here. I don’t have the intellectual capacity for it. So I will just tell you what’s been happening.

Elections

Of course I have to mention this. Today is Election Day in the Philippines. This means a new president (and other people in the government, too). That is, if the elections are successful. But being a mediocre country, there’s always the possibility of machines failing, cheating, and all other kinds of chaos including some kinds that haven’t been discovered yet.

Anyway, I don’t want to talk much about this issue. I’m not very fond of arguing, and I’ve found that when the issue is politics, even the smallest of comments about something can become a very big debatable issue. Maski nga itong hindi ko pangingialam para hindi mapaaway, ‘eh nasasabihan akong apathetic, selfish, walang malasakit sa kapwa,  o kaya walang pagmamahal sa bansa.

Well, I’d say that we should just pray for an orderly elections, except I know that not everybody prays. So let’s all just hope for it. Everybody hopes, right?

Transitions

Speaking of transitions, a somewhat significant event has taken place and well, the effect is quite significant as well. My best friend has just receivced more responsibilities in a certain organization, and I’ve been told that that means less time for hanging out, which is just perfect because as you know, my sister is in New Zealand and engaged to be married so… Yeah, it’s always fun when your best friends become busy with other things and you’re left alone, forced to be independent and cold.

Just in case you didn’t get it, I was being sarcastic. It’s actually not fun at all.

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And here I was wondering why I haven’t written any entries since May started. Why would I update when I have no good news to tell?